an empty mind
4/8/2O25

sorry for the lack of updates on this blog, guys. i almost forgot this website existed...

but i feel like NOTHING majorly interesting is happening in my life. i literally have no idea what to write about. even as i'm writing this, i have no idea what the next sentence of this blog is gonna be.

sometimes when i try to get ideas, i just lie in bed and stare at the ceiling fan. and then i just think. what happened earlier today, or last week? was it all worth it? okay, it may have been worth it. is it worth writing about? am i okay with my parents... am i okay with the WORLD knowing about this stuff? maybe not. it's not worth writing about. i used to have ideas flowing through my mind just a couple weeks ago, but i never did articulate them. never wrote them down, never told anyone. now my mind just feels BLANK. i feel miserable as always. depression has kind of become my normal mood. over the past few months, running a website has been a great way for me to express most of my feelings without being judged.  this post is just a vent, don't expect any hidden meanings or easter eggs.

anyway, as always, thanks for reading. i hope you have a nice day!